Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Announcements for Thanksgiving Week

 

 
Saturday, December 17 at 6:30pm
The Ivory Banks and Josh Dillard

New options for a building, please keep this in your prayers! Keep your ears peeled as we will be able to share more on December 11th.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

We are continuing our series in Galations, "The Epic Tensions" will pick back up in Chapter 5. Bring your friends and family! See you there!

 

One LOVE!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

OVERCOME

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The life I have been blessed with has been very trying of late. I have had physical limitations that are overpowering, I have encountered my old foe depression, and I am plagued with dehabilitating fatigue that overwhelms.

 

Today though I realized something about the word overcome. It is a word in process, a word of action, a state of being. I have been so overpowered by the afflictions of my predicament that I have forgotten the nature of BEING. Although there are many conditions that create the very nature of life, I have been focused on circumstances rather than the actuality of existence.

 

I AM in a state of overcoming. No matter what the circumstances are, two and a half years ago the “status” of who I was changed from defeated, to overcoming. America is where I hail from. The strange land that has culturally taught us that the only way to live, is perfectly. But my life is a mess and I am a mess inside of it. I live in complete chaos. There is a continued spiral of decay that is alive and well in me. I think that there are many people who would look at my life in astonishment as I declare the center of my life, revolves around Christ. I hear the cries already: “But if God was real then she would be better!” or “If she was a true believer then she would get her act together!”.

 

The problem with these lines of thinking is that they are both self-centered. The first: "If God was real, then..." Well, I’m not God, but I am personally hard to understand. Who am I to question the motives and actions of the one who calls Himself “I AM” if I cannot even fathom the depths of my own soul?  In all honesty, I would rather worship a being that makes no sense at times, than one who perfectly aligns with my underwhelming mind. The other thought process involves a ridiculous notion that the common state of being for any human is perfection. If I have my facts straight, this has never been our “natural” state. We are imperfect beings.

 

In John 16 Jesus is speaking to his disciples about what is to come. He says:

 

Do you now believe? Behold, the hour is coming, indeed it has come, when you will be scattered, each to his own home, and will leave me alone. Yet I am not alone, for the Father is with me. I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.

 

He speaks with authority and in a very clear way he communicates the reality of what will happen on the cross; the literal moment of overcoming. He who has overcome the pain, the trials, our sin and shame; now lives in me. I leave you with the glorious worship that is Romans 8:18-39. This is my state of permanent being. I have already overcome through the power of Christ, now I eagerly wait for redemption.

 

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God. For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees?

           

But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience. Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.  And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.

           

            God’s Everlasting Love

 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised— who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? As it is written,

 

              "For your sake we are being killed all the day long;

                        we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered."

                                    

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

 

Monday, August 15, 2011

The Lamb Led to Slaughter.

We speak a good deal about that supreme mystery of our faith, the death to self. For, as we have heard, he who would save his life shall lose it, and he who loses his life for Jesus’ sake shall find it. But what does that really mean -to die to self? Does it mean, perhaps, selling my car and going on foot or by bus? It might. We can’t rule out the possibility. Does it mean, perhaps, selling my good clothes and furniture so that my wife and I should sit around in rags on orange crates? It might. Certainly we can’t dismiss that possibility either. For the problem is that words like “dying to self” are translated into some kind of action, or something that actually happens -that is, some real change -they don’t have any real meaning. So we certainly must try, eventually, to translate them into the language of action.

But before we get too hasty and impatient there are some things at which we should take a hard look. The first is that we have a rather incurable tendency always to refuse to really listen to the words of God and instead to translate them immediately into something we are going to do, indeed, can do. This is what we always do with the law. We take it and translate it into a do-it-yourself kit for salvation. It is as though we think we are going to do God a big favor by living up to what is demanded of us and even, possibly, put him out of the salvation business by accomplishing all or at least some of it ourselves-even if that turns out to be just a teeny-weeny little bit. But when we do that we really come a-cropper when we come to this word about dying to self. For what can that possibly mean in a do-it-yourself religion? Here God has set a snare for us in our easy confidence that we are big enough to handle the job. For this is a word that we find difficult to handle. We find ourselves forced either to ignore it -which we mostly do -or to try to cut it down to size so we can handle it -maybe by selling our car or our furniture or our clothes. But even then we can’t rest too easily with it, for we are never quite sure that that is enough. For however much discomfort such actions may cause us, is that really dying to self? They may be just another means of keeping myself in the business of doing God big -or little -favors, and thus of protecting myself from really hearing the words. The trouble is that the self keeps getting in the way.

But what then does it really mean? When considering this question, I was struck by some of the incidents recorded in our texts for today. For here we have the picture of Jesus on the way to his death. His disciples are with him, and are apparently figuring that they are going to have a hand in what is about to happen. They want to go along. They want to help out, to do their bit in the business of bringing in God’s kingdom, even, as Peter says in Mark’s account, if that means sacrificing their lives. But the really difficult thing for them to take, as I suspect it also is for us as “religious” people, is that in the final analysis there is absolutely and utterly nothing they can do. When Jesus sets his face to go to Jerusalem, Peter wants to do something about it. He sets himself in the way and says, “God forbid, Lord! Don’t do it! Don’t go!” Peter wants to do God a favor -to protect and preserve the Messiah and his kingdom. But Jesus looks at him and says, “Get thee behind me Satan! For you are hindrance to me, you are not on the side of God, but of men” (Mark 8:33)’ This, Jesus says, is something that must happen; it is going to happen because God wants it, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.

And at the betrayal in the Garden of Gethsemane when the crowd comes out against Jesus with swords and clubs, they still want to do something. They still want to do their bit for God. They want to take up the sword and risk their lives, perhaps, and fight. One of them grasps a sword and cuts off the ear of one of the assailants. But Jesus will have  none of it: “Put up your sword,” he says, “for there is absolutely nothing you can do!” In Luke’s account, Jesus even stretches out his hand to undo what the disciples had tried to do -he heals the wounded man. At that point, no doubt, everything within us cries out in protest along with the disciples. Is there nothing we can do? Could we not at least perhaps stage a protest march on God’s behalf? Could we not seek, perhaps, an interview with Pilate? Could we not try to influence the “power structures”? Something -however small? But the unrelenting answer comes back, “No, there is nothing you can do, absolutely nothing. If there were something to be done, my Father would send legions of angels to fight!” But there is nothing to be done. “For how then should the Scriptures be fulfilled, that it must be so?” And when it finally came to that last and bitter moment, when these good religious men finally realized that there was nothing they could do, they forsook him and fled.

Can you see it? Can you see that hidden in these very words, these very events, is that death itself which you fear so much coming to meet you? For there is nothing that the old man -the self which must die fears so much as having everything taken out of his hands. When they finally saw there was nothing they could do they forsook him and fled before the awesome truth. You, who presume to do business with God, can you see it? Can you see that this death of self is not, in the final analysis, something you can do? For the point is that God has once and for all reserved for himself the business of your salvation. There is nothing you can do now but, as the words of the old hymn have it, “climb Calvary’s mournful mountain” and stand with your helpless arms at your side and tremble before “that miracle of time, God’s own sacrifice complete! It is finished; hear him cry; learn of Jesus Christ to die!”

Can you see it? Can you see that really the last, bitter death is there? That in that cross God has stormed the last bastion of the self, the last presumption that you really were going to do something for him? Can you see that the death of Jesus Christ is your death? He has died in your place! He has done it. He made it. He created a salvation in the midst of time and his enemies. He is God happening to you. It is all over, finished, between you and God! He died in your place that death which you must die; he has done it in such a way as to save you. He has borne the whole thing! The fact that there is nothing left for you to do is the death of self and new birth of the new creature. He died to make a new creature of you, and as he arose, to raise you up to trust God alone.

If you can see it, perhaps then you can see, or perhaps at least begin to see, what is the power of God’s grace and rejoice. For that is the other side of the coin once you have gotten out of your self-enclosed system. Then perhaps you can turn away from yourself, maybe really for the first time, and look upon your neighbors. Maybe for the first time you can begin to receive creation as a gift, a sheer gift from God’s hands. And who knows what might happen in the power of this grace? All possibilities are open. You might sell your car, or even give it away -for someone else. You might find even that you could swallow your pride and stage a protest march -for your neighbor -or begin to seek to influence the power structures! For in the power of his cross the way is open! The way is open to begin, at least, perhaps in faltering ways, in countless little ways, to realize what it means to die to self. For that, in the final analysis, is his gift to you, the free gift of the new man, the new woman, the one who can live in faith and hope, for whom all possibilities are open!

I experienced firsthand the overwhelming pain of helplessness this week. In a very literal way I stood by incapable, as the lamb was led to slaughter.

In this moment I did what I do best.

I fled.

My heart breaks to say this but it is true. I did not run to my Savior, I ran away. In true form of the example set by the disciples, when I saw there was nothing I could do I ran away.

The most amazing thing about this moment of humiliation is that God is here, even when I run. God is good, even when I run. God is true even when I run.

I am learning to trust that this horrific situation, that I can do nothing in, will be turned for God's Glory. Even though I ran, there is grace for me also, I am being turned for God's Glory.

As you read this sermon by Gerhard Forde (and I pray you do!), be reminded that it is not central to you, but most importantly hinges on Jesus.

"Jesus paid it all, all to Thee I owe,
Sin had left a crimson stain, He washed it white as snow.
Oh praise the One who Paid my debt and brought this life up from the grave!"

Saturday, August 13, 2011

A Conversation on Theology

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Over the past few months I have seen a wide spray of conjecture based on current "popular" leaders opinions in the Christian world. It is very refreshing to hear a conversation with four of those such leaders who are all very different in understanding certain views.

Bloggers and fast-paced information movement has caused us to lose sight of CONVERSATION and move into complete and total thought driven SPECULATION. As I watch these four men, who are integral to the heartbeat of the Christian Movement today (this is true whether you agree with all of their doctrines or not), I see a facet that a lot of us have missed: Discussion.

As we are very vocal beings it is important to know and share what you believe and who you are. Do not miss this. Please continue to surmise and interpret, please continue to let others know what you see and how you see it, but most importantly please do not forget to take a moment to hear more than your own voice.

There is a reason that others see the world differently than you do. Instead of persecuting and even protecting these views, how about listening with fresh eyes the other side. Maybe the middle ground will be Jesus.

As you watch this video, hear the nuance of differences, but also realize that there is always a middle ground. May we learn from these gifted men the art of conversation.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

A burning heart of Escapism?

Aching for yonder shores and longingly scanning the distant horizon may well be God’s call on our lives. But it also may be our impatience with the monotonous minutiae of the daily grind. Escapism is not fulfilling the great commission.  

Regardless of our location, abroad or at home, all ministry is inescapably local. Every worker in a global context must embrace the monotonous minutiae of a new daily grind after the plane lands—figuring out the postal service, dealing with the cell phone company, conjugating verbs in the slow and tedious study of the language. If we cannot be faithful to do our statistics homework or collaborate with our coworkers, then we may lack the strength of character required for dealing with the meticulous annoyances of a more radical life beyond the romanticized horizon.

I love the heart test behind this article. I am ever wanting to leave the place that I am at, yet this is what I am called to: today. In church we have been cracking the surface of the book of James. The passage in chapter four hit me hard: Come now, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit"— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, "If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that." As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.

I do not know what tomorrow will bring, am I wasting the glory of this moment by wishing I was elsewhere? Most definitely. I may be called to another place in my lifetime, but being unable to love this time and this moment only deters that from happening.

I am learning to rest on God. And God has brought me through today. For that I give thanks. This moment is a mist, and I pray that I make the most of it.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Reverently Enamored.

Set the faithfulness of the Lord before you under the saddest providences. 
O what quietness will this breed! I see my God will not lose my heart, if a rod can prevent it. he would rather hear me groan here than howl hereafter. His love is judicious, not fond. He consults my good rather than my ease.

-John Flavel

 

 

 

Excerpt taken from Jonathan Parnell's blog post. Read the rest here.

 

Monday, July 18, 2011

Prayer Request

I just got an update from my friend Becky about the baby that was born this week:

UPDATE ON BABY LILLIE, JENNA, AND ROBBY:

Her (Lillie) kidneys and liver are not functioning as normal, and could possibly fail. Her heart has about half the blood needed for proper function. So PLEASE pray for complete healing and restoration over all of her organs.

The doctor say she IS going to make it! Her brain responses are very active and responds to their touch instantly. She got her cooling cap off today, and seems to be doing well with it off!

Jenna is feeling better, and getting more energy as the days pass, but also has problems with not having enough blood in her body. Please pray for her overall pain, for her blood to start reproducing, and rest for her body.

Robby is in awe of God, and is in better spirits. He was in shock of this whole situation, but is getting through it by the grace of God's peace and comfort! Please pray that he'll continue to stay strong, an continue to encourage Jenna throughout this trial in their life.  

Thank you for all your prayers!!!

Thank you all so much for your prayers. Please keep Baby Lillie and Mama Jenna as they are both continuing to recieve blood transfusions. There are already miraculous things happening with this family, and I know that God has his place in their story.

 

Once again thank you for your steadfast prayers. Please pass this along if you wouldn't mind. :)

Sunday, May 29, 2011

I Think it is All Coming Back to Me Now

Do you ever meet a moment that you did not like? How about those days where every second is dragging and each breath becomes more akin to nails on a chalkboard, than refreshing, sustaining life? What about those times in life when everything seems ok but you are literally wanting to pull your skin off because something is just not right? What about in your relationship with Christ? Have you ever faced those times when life was supposed to be magically remade when you said Yes to Jesus, but fast-forward a few years and the supernatural is now humdrum?

I am going to admit that I am so there. When I “got saved”, I was alive as I had never been. Every day was a rush to start learning about Christ. I sat through bible studies and read piles of books, asked tons of questions and everyday fell deeper in love with my Savior. I am learning that the funny thing about Humans is that we are ever so forgetful. When was the last time you were speaking of Jesus and the reality of who He is and what He has done, overcame all thought and emotion bringing you to tears?

I forget.

The ability we have to push the beauty of Christ out of our daily lives is tragic, and consistent. Even those who study the word regularly can take out the cosmic beauty and insert a rather dry and crusty routine. How sad this is. However, this is our nature. I see a human pattern of forgetfulness, as we try to live in any other moment than the one we are in. We look so far into the future that we miss out of moments, days, months and even years of “right now”. Ever pressing into what is next, we miss the challenge of today, and with it the hardship and joy that right now brings. We are simply watching the second hand drive out reality so we can move on to a better time. We can also do the same by living in the past, the best years of our lives were come and gone, so we aim to make right now look just like the good old days.

I bet that the repetition of the book of Judges in the Bible is there for a reason. As one who notices rhythms and patterns, all I can see in that book is the vicious cycle that the Israelites maintained magnificently. How did they continue to forget? Then I remember my own life. How is it possible for me to forget? The redundancy of my own forgetfulness is humbling. I catch myself often trying to “get by”, without my Saviors lead.

I think that just as with the cycle of seasons in nature, we too have seasons that we go through in life. Sometimes we have moments of forgetfulness, but this makes the remembering all the sweeter. Sometimes we are ahead of our time, visions of what is to come permeating into today, and this is wonderful also as we get to imagine the undoing of all the sadness and brokenness that will be. We are allowed to remember. Remember who we were, and how we got here. This is redemption renewed. A sweet refreshing flood of memories reminding you of the person you are becoming.

I realize that as my human nature is to forget, God’s cosmic nature is to remind. He is a jealous lover, gazing on me as my mind is elsewhere; He will woo me as only He can. Gently and lovingly, he once again recaptures my attention and draws me into his fixed eyes that never wander. This moment is precious and restorative. This moment brings life and nourishes. I will never tire of this.  

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Beauty, Pornography, Clothing, and Jesus

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Recently a few ideas have caught my attention. I think that Mary Kassan encapsulates this thought process about the blogs and verbiage that have accompanied it well (I urge you to read her thoughts!). There is a conversation being walked out about the idea of women and beauty. I have heard from a number of male pastor’s and the idea that it is Biblical to “keep yourself up” for your husband. Although this is a very important topic and there is a lot to be said on both sides, this is not what I want to talk about.

A few years ago I wrote on the struggle, I had while dating a boy trapped inside of a man’s body. He was addicted to pornography and I knew this even before I had proof. I was not saved at the time so I responded as a girl outside of grace would; I tried to become the girl he had in his head. When I was saved, I was able to forgive him. I was able to see how I responded wrongly in the situation. I was able to repent. You can read about this in-depth here: Breakthrough. My response to his problem was very wrong, and I am wondering if women in Church are doing a similar thing?

As I survey the wide landscape that makes up the body of Christ, I see many responses to beauty. I walk into a church building at times and feel no different to the cocktail I used to be. Men’s hearts are dark. I also know that I have used my beauty to sinfully captivate attention. Women’s hearts are dark. Thus, we reach a conundrum. How do we as women, become the crown of creation, as God intended, without the nature of sin taking this gift and warping it?

We can’t.

There is no way that we can walk in who we were created to be without the restorative nature of Christ redeeming us daily. Without redemption, we only have the ability to use our form for evil. I emphatically believe that there is a physical response to an inward reality, and women who are struggling with worth, self-esteem and the idea of love are always responding outwardly. This outward expression is one I stumbled into not in a healthy discussion surrounded by fellow believers, but at beauty school. A radical phenomenon happens when a woman has a fight with her significant other, instead dealing with her relationship, she would overhaul her hair. This was always so illogical to me, it made no sense to fight an inward battle with an outside appeal to beauty.

I think that this is similar to what the Church has done to the idea of beauty. Instead of dealing with the real issue, we are making women who are down, inside and out, only feel worse. This is not love, this is shame. I grew up in a “church” where it was never ok, to be beautiful on the outside. We were taught that outward beauty caused a man to stumble and it was our responsibility to dress “appropriately”. There is a huge off-kilter message among churches. The idea that we as women want to be dumpy, or that we are trying to be “loose” is absurd. I would say that there is a perfectly good reason that women have responded in the ways they have. No matter what we wear, there is a judgment that goes with it. If we are trying to be conservative, we are deemed “let go”, if we are dressing modernly, we are now sluts.

The only way I see any remedy to this situation is a cry for grace. Gentlemen, you have asked us that we give you grace in your journey, so I beg that you do the same. As we seek to worship the One who gave us our form, we ask that you pray for us along this journey. Instead of telling us what we should or should not wear, how about you help us work out our salvation with fear and trembling? Ladies, I think that this discussion should continue, I think that your motives should be questioned and I think that our hearts are never pure, so would you do the same? Seek to worship and honor Christ in all that you do, including what you wear.

Friday, May 27, 2011

too many words will ruin this moment

I took myself on a date this evening. I went to Chipotle and got my grub on, then proceeded to get Ice Cream at Josh and John's. On the way home I ran into a co-worker who caught me ogling the sky. I was so inside of the moment of breathtaking beauty forming right before my eyes that I almost missed him! By the time I made it home this is what the sky looked like:

I knew that this sky was about to burst with glory so I set out to find a place where I could see this unfold. I found my niche after a short walk, and in the overpowering midst of the smell of spring I oohed and awwed at the explosive radiant celebration of the end of day that was happening before me.

I can say no more as my breath escapes me. Unbelievable.

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My favorite shot of the escapade.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Questions Sometimes Need No Answer

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I ended my first book with the words, no answer. I know now, Lord, why you utter no answer. You are yourself the answer. Before your face questions die away. What other answer would suffice? Only words, words; to be led out to battle against other words. Long did I hate you, long did I fear you. I might—

— Till We Have Faces, C.S. Lewis

Monday, May 9, 2011

The Rhythm of the Absolute

Defining the way you see the world is indeed like going to an eye doctor. To understand what type of prescription you need to see the world clearly, you must first determine the parameters with which you view it in the first place. My goal is first to communicate how I see the world, secondly why I came to see the world that way, and thirdly how it affects my daily life. This is a proverbial worldview check-up if you will. An untangling of the way I perceive this world, and how causes me to engage in the reality around me,

When learning how to communicate the fundamentals, I think it best to keep it as simple, yet as poignant as possible. I believe the Nicene Creed captures the essence of this best:

We BELIEVE in one God,
the Father, the Almighty,
maker of heaven and earth,
of all that is, seen and unseen.

We believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ,
the only Son of God,
eternally begotten of the Father,
God from God, Light from Light,
true God from true God,
begotten, not made,
of one Being with the Father.
Through him all things were made.

For us and for our salvation
he came down from heaven:
by the power of the Holy Spirit
he became incarnate from the Virgin Mary,
and was made man.

For our sake he was crucified under Pontius Pilate;
he suffered death and was buried.
On the third day he rose again
in accordance with the Scriptures;
he ascended into heaven
and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

He will come again in glory to judge the living and the dead,
and his kingdom will have no end.

We believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of life,
who proceeds from the Father and the Son.
With the Father and the Son he is worshiped and glorified.
He has spoken through the Prophets.
We believe in one holy catholic and apostolic Church.
We acknowledge one baptism for the forgiveness of sins.
We look for the resurrection of the dead,
and the life of the world to come.

Amen. (Society of Archbishop Justus, 2007)

Continuing along the same vein of simple speak, to unpack this a bit, I believe that God “the infinite and personal (triune), transcendent and immanent, omniscient, sovereign, and good being who created the universe” (Sire, 2004 p 83), desires the very thing that we cannot do, live in communion with Him. God is completely good and we are on our best days (although created to be image bearers of God’s glory) are melded with sin; because of this we are unable to even stand in His presence. To right this, God sent His son Jesus to live as man, perfectly and then to die as a sacrifice for humankind’s sin nature. The beauty of this story is that after three days of death, He came to life again, giving us the hope of redemption.

Throughout the timeline of the bible there was woven into the tapestry of the story the specific tale of restoration and regeneration. Jesus was foretold and shown to us before he ever stepped into humanity. This makes every piece of History integral to our understanding of who God is and what truth is. I believe that God is Truth and taking him out of the framework of linear history or truth makes no sense.

“All knowledge forms one whole, because its subject matter is one; for the universe in its length and breadth is so intimately knit together that we cannot separate off portion from portion, and operation from operation, except by mental abstraction.” (Sire. p.55)

Thus, the way to understand life is to understand God. This long-term goal and lifetime adventure enables truth to be understood and attained. Because we are in right relationship with God, we now are able to understand right from left, up from down, right from wrong. The understanding that comes from the cognitive reality of God allows us to agree that there is absolute truth.

The framework that I believe as truth, was not always my own. There are many “reasons” why I came to this understanding, but only one that matters here. James Sire relates John Calvin’s view of this idea:

There exists in the human mind, and indeed by natural instinct, some sense of Deity, we hold to be beyond dispute, since God himself, to prevent any man from pretending ignorance, has endued all men with some idea of his Godhead, the memory of which he constantly renews and occasionally enlarges, that all to a man being aware that there is a God, and that he is their Maker, may be condemned by their own conscience when they neither worship him nor consecrate their lives to his service. (Sire, 2004 p. 80)

 

God made man in his image and inside of us, there is a void that we cannot fill. We were made for God and because of this, our world is not right until we respond to that reality. There are three distinct ways of interacting with the idea of God: accept it, ignore it, or refuse it. “The heavens declare the glory of God, and the sky above proclaims his handiwork” Psalm 19:1 ESV, 2010). This reality haunts us throughout our life. Every glory filled sunset, every thunderous cascading waterfall, every star filled night sky speaks of the glory of God. It fills a piece of this void and causes us to desire the full version. We yearn for God and He like a veracious lover woos us completely. “He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man’s heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end” (Ecclesiastes 3:9:11, ESV, 2010).

Through a journey of adventure in nature, I found an adoration that I could not contain. Why was I drawn to these things? Why did they well up emotion inside of me with no notice? What language of magnificence was this that spoke directly to my soul? These questions could not be answered by the atheist mindset that I had come to rest in. There was no answer for the divine stirrings inside of me. The only thing that fit was the vision of a Lover calling my need for Him to my direct attention. My eyes were opened and for the first time Jesus was more than a crude crucifix. Jesus stepped into my life with a weight of Truth that is still sending vibrations through my reality. This beautiful enactment of the most precious love story that we have ever encountered is offered to us all. I believe emphatically in this reality, this love was irresistible; my soul had no other response than to say yes.

I could not live without this truth as my own epicenter. This “yes” interacts with every facet of my life. When I found this love story I was a base and vile creature, yet when one is met with irrefutable love, the understanding of life’s value begins to unfold. “Once we capture even a partial understanding of the true character of God, the response is a mixture of awe, fear, joy, and delight” (Philips, Brown, Stonestreet, 2008 p.211). I had no other response than to let my entire life become worship. Every breath I take speaks the name of God, thus there is a holistic response to the reality of God. The food I choose to eat, the money I get to spend, the people I have the honor of interacting with and even the classes I take in school are all challenged by the nature of God welling up inside of me. I am an image bearer in the process of restoration. All that I do begins to reflect this.

Life is rhythmic, everywhere we look we see this in action: Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter; Birth, Life, Death; the beat of our hearts; the rhythm in our breath; everything speaks of this cosmic rhythm. We first find it in Genesis, in the story of creation. God speaks to life the rhythm of our souls. I define my life before I met Christ as chaos at best. There was no rhythm, no sense of established tempo, and truthfully no reason to try to attain one. After the Lord brought me to life, I finally felt the beat of my heart move in tempo with this cosmic cadence.  Eugene Peterson speaks of this reality and it begs us all to take thought:

These Genesis work-rhythms are reproduced in our lives and brought to focus in the Sabbath-rest command that enables our participation. When we walk out of the place of worship, we walk with fresh recognizing eyes and a re-created obedient heart into the world in which we are God’s image participation in God’s creation work. Everything we see, touch, feel, and taste carries within it the rhythms of “And God said…and it was so…and it was good…” We are more deeply in and at home in the creation than ever. (Peterson, 2005 p.71)

We are called to life. I am now like a moth fighting to get closer to the flame and I will do whatever I can to ensure this happens. My thoughts, my actions, my friendships, my work ethics all revolve around this magnificence. This light drives me and nothing will stop me from reaching it. With forceful resolve and intentional direction, I aim for Christ. There is nothing in my own life that is not shaped by this.

The way in which I see the world begs a sense of trust in the Unseen. I have faith in something bigger than I could ever imagine. Absolute Truth holds sway to what I believe and why and how this affects life, as I understand it. There is a sense of a deep and substantial foundation that is set for the rest of my time here on earth. A solid reminder of a bigger story that I have the honor of gracing the pages of. What a phenomenal tale of regeneration, hope, and ultimate restoration. I am humbled and awestruck that I get to see through this lens of reality and live out a life in response to it.

References
The Holy Bible: English Standard Version: the ESV study Bible. (2010). Wheaton, IL: Crossway Bibles.
Peterson, E. H. . (2005). Christ plays in tne thousand places: a conversation in spritiual theology. Grand Rapids, MI: Wm. B. Eerdmans Publishing Co.
Phillips, W. G., Brown, W., & Stonestreet, J. (2008). Making sense of your world: A biblical worldview (2nd ed.). Salem, WI: Sheffield Publishing Company.
Sire, J. W. (2004). Naming the elephant: worldview as a concept. Downers Grove, IL: InterVarsity Press.
Society of Archbishop Justus (2007, April 15). The nicene creed. Retrieved from http://anglicansonline.org/basics/nicene.html

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Freedom Is In Our Hands: An Academic Plea for Help

A voiceless cry is being let out daily; it is the silent scream of the stolen. Millions of people each year simply vanish and are fed into an underground industry called Human Trafficking. Human Trafficking is simply a fancy word for slavery and today, “there are more people held in slavery than at the height of the transatlantic slave trade” (Polaris Project, 2010). The harsh reality is that slavery is reaching into every aspect of American life, yet we simply are unaware, or unwilling to face the problem. To combat this we must make information more readily available, take action by using our buying power, and make micro-economic and micro-finance opportunities a reality for the poorest of the poor.

Human lives are being sold and used; precious people are worth more than being turned into a commodity. Currently the rough estimate is that, “Twenty-seven million slaves exist in our world today” (Batstone, 2007, p1). The average price that is paid for these lives is approximately ninety American Dollars (Free the Slaves, 2011). The notion that slavery ended in America with the ratification of the 13th amendment is a naive one at best. Today people are actively involved in a black market business: people are turned into products and traffickers profit millions of dollars from them.

Michelle Rickert an active abolitionist, wrote a magnificent paper entitled: Through the Looking Glass: Finding and Freeing Modern Slaves at the State Level for Liberty University. She shares a speech former President George W. Bush gave to the United Nations about this travesty that defines the scope of this issue:

Each year, an estimated 800,000 to 900,000 human beings are bought, sold or forced across the world’s borders. Among them are hundreds of thousands of teenage girls, and others as young as five, who fall victim to the sex trade. This commerce in human life generates billions of dollars each year— much of which is used to finance organized crime.
There’s a special evil in the abuse and exploitation of the most innocent and vulnerable. The victims of sex trade see little of life before they see the very worst of life—an underground of brutality and lonely fear. Those who create these victims and profit from their suffering must be severely punished. Those who patronize this industry debase themselves and deepen the misery of others. And governments that tolerate this trade are tolerating a form of slavery. (Rickert, 2010)

As stated, by Bush, another way people are used is in the sex trafficking industry; mainly women and children are taken to other countries and used as sex toys to feed humanities growing addictions to prostitution and pornography. This is a daily occurrence in America, with heightened activity happening during major sporting events. Amy Sullivan reports that “In Miami last year, police estimated that as many as 10,000 prostitutes from outside the area arrived for Super Bowl week” (Sullivan, 2011). The reality that these girls are most likely there by force and some are even underage is hard to accept.

Scientia potentia est or “Knowledge is power” as the popular idiom would go, causes us to ask ourselves when affronted with this information, “why have I never heard about these realities before?” The information void about slavery is astonishing, There are many grassroots movements putting together small informative meetings, non-profit organizations that are writing books and sending e-mails, and hometown abolitionists are putting up flyers in their neighborhoods, all attempting to spread the word quickly and effectively.

The problem with trying to bring information to the frontlines is that people are mainly occupied with trendy issues. If you do not have the impressive ability to engage the attention of the masses, the story will be ignored. Currently the average American is a consumer of information. Not only do people have full control over what TV shows they watch with the introduction of recorded TV, but also with social networking the ability to filter what you see has taken over. RSS feeders capture a massive amount of information, but only when you subscribe to the feed do you get wind of the information. The urge for people to cut out negative information has reached an all time high in this post 9/11 world. This poses a problem for small organizations trying to inform the masses. If people do not want to hear the negative, they are easily able to filter it out. Small movements trying to uproot large issues have to overcome the reality that revolutions necessitate strategy to overcome these obstacles.

With the uprising of simple, inexpensive ways to spread the word, like Facebook and Twitter, there seems to be a new surge of enlightenment and discovery. These social networks have become tools of refuge for the activist, enabling them to rapidly spread information and needs.  David Batsone President and Co-Founder of Not For Sale, recently did an interview with Jack Dorsey, the creator of Twitter and communicates why he believes this is a tool that will bring change:

“I think because there is transparency. That is what social media allows you to do. We can tell the stories of people. Its not then, a rather ideological argument that you have to somehow convince people that you are right and they are wrong or vice versa. But its about actually exposing people to the truth and individual people’s stories. Its also communicating that you create a community of credibility” (Not For Sale Campaign, 2010).

Media outlets of all kinds are entering the fight for life. Recently CNN has added The CNN Freedom Project to their online database, highlighting stories and trying to put and end to slavery, by informative reporting and individual stories. They see the need to initiate a global informative approach: “This year CNN will join the fight to end modern-day slavery and shine a spotlight on the horrors of modern-day slavery, amplify the voices of the victims, highlight success stories and help unravel the complicated tangle of criminal enterprises trading in human life” (CNN, 2011). Information is only one facet of this plight; once educated how can we then effect change?

People of all shapes and size, race and color, either sex, are being stolen, and forced into situations that most of us would shudder at the thought of. As consumers, we are buying products that are farmed by little boys and girls who are bought for a price, and forced to work the rest of their lives for our commodities. The coffee and chocolate industry specifically feed into this and there is not much accountability being implemented to keep this from happening. Children are easy prey and once taken are moved with ease across borders, just like that the child is permanently enslaved. The borders across countries are frequently porous and the agents patrolling are deftly bribed. Governments, although initiating laws against such practices, are not able or willing to implement them.  
The abolitionists and human-rights activist step in to mandate change through purchasing power and ardent campaigning for the value of human life. Places like Free2Work.org, give people practical information and reasons to choose products that do not support slavery. This organization has gone to great lengths in researching the level of commitment a company has to ensure that their products are not being made by slaves. They have created a very large database in which you can look up a brand and check their level of responsibility, putting the power of choice back into the hands of the consumer:

The complexities of the global slave trade and limited insight into product supply chains make it difficult for the average consumer to grasp how they are connected to labor abuses occurring within the global production cycle. Today, companies are working with a wide range of initiatives- such as monitoring, certification and labeling programs - to assure their consumers that their products do not violate worker rights. And then there are companies that choose to do nothing. This plethora of approaches is extremely confusing for the average consumer who seeks an answer to the simple question: what’s the story behind my products?


            After extensive research, Free2Work grades companies on a scale of “A” to “F” based on supply chain transparency, code of conduct, response to child and forced labor, and overall efforts to empower workers. A broad range of certification programs also exist that attempt to protect worker rights. The volume and variety of these systems and product labels can be confusing to consumers. Free2Work helps to reduce the confusion and demonstrate to consumers how each program differs by rating these certifications. (Not For Sale, n.d.)

Is this helping though? If the people with the buying power actually made a simple decision to change the way they purchased, then yes this would make a difference. The reality is this grassroots movement has little support, and many though disgusted by the idea of child slavery are not willing to give up their novelties such as chocolate and coffee or buy fair trade to save lives.

            So if what we are doing is not working, what is the next action? We must go into the places where the poorest of the poor live and give them opportunities to grow. Microeconomics change the way small villages exist. Unfathomably poor is where most of the world lives daily. The idea we have as Americans of the term “poor” is comparatively wealthy in the minds of those in ravaged third world countries. The decision to give up a child is not that far outside understanding if it comes down to exchanging one life for betterment of the rest. Those in the trafficking business will also lie about the child. They go to poor villages and tell parents that if they let this child go to work, they will send money back. Once convincing them of this lie, they take the child never to return.

            If we go into communities that have nothing and teach them a simple trade or give them an animal that can be bred or offers a product (like eggs or milk), the entire community will be changed. By giving them a commodity other than children, you are in effect increasing the worth of life. Trades like making jewelry and the investment of animals like goats or chickens are among the most popular ways to bring small economics into tiny communities that will gradually improve the overall state of life. Organizations such as Heifer International are firm in their stance to provide long-term solutions instead of a quickly digestible free lunch. This comprehensive way of giving achieves much more than a gift, it increases the worth of life, as those who are impacted have gained the dignity of sustainability.

First, Heifer helps a community group analyze their situation. They ask: What do we need? What are our resources? What would we like to see happen in five years? Then, they plan specific activities to achieve their goals.
            At this point, the Heifer “living loan” becomes reality. Farmers prepare for their animals by participating in training sessions, building sheds, and sometimes planting trees and grasses.
Then the livestock arrives – bringing with it the benefits of milk, wool, draft power, eggs and offspring to pass on to another farmer.
Finally, the group evaluates its progress, and the cycle repeats as the group moves to more and more ambitious goals, each time visioning, deciding, implementing and reflecting.
Every family and community that receives assistance promises to repay their living loan by donating one or more of their animal’s offspring to another family in need. This practice of “Passing on the Gift” ensures project sustainability, develops community and enhances self-esteem by allowing project partners to become donors.
            This is Heifer’s sustainable approach to ending hunger and poverty – one family, one animal at a time. It’s not temporary relief. It’s not a handout. It’s securing a future with generations of people who have hope, health and dignity. (Heifer International, n.d.)

            There are also ways that Americans with a surplus in their budget can equally impact the movement. Microfinance institutions are blooming in many communities. Someone wanting to help can offer loans in small amounts through institutions like Kiva, “a non-profit organization with a mission to connect people through lending to alleviate poverty. Leveraging the Internet and a worldwide network of microfinance institutions, Kiva lets individuals lend as little as $25 to help create opportunity around the world” (2005-2011). Microeconomics and microfinance organizations are trying to infuse poverty not only with hope, but also money, which supports real change.

The reality of trafficking and slavery is daunting, and it would only make sense that the ways we are trying to stop it must be just as big. If we do not take action to end Modern Slavery completely, we will see the worth of human life continue to decline. The statement given by the Congress of the United States when enacting the Trafficking Victims and Protection Act speaks to this resolve:

One of the founding documents of the United States, the Declaration of Independence, recognizes the inherent dignity and worth of all people. It states that all men are created equal and that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights. The right to be free from slavery and involuntary servitude is among those unalienable rights. Acknowledging this fact, the United States outlawed slavery and involuntary servitude in 1865, recognizing them as evil institutions that must be abolished. Current practices of sexual slavery and trafficking of women and children are similarly abhorrent to the principles upon which the United States was founded. (Rickert, 2010)

The idea that human life is more precious than our comfort, and freedom is worth fighting for, must be adopted on a global scale before we will see much improvement in this perversion of life. As a whole, we must create a community that is willing to take simple steps in making this happen. Humanity has enabled this evil to make a mockery of our most precious and valuable commodity: freedom. The scales are tipping in a chaotic and demeaning direction and this must stop. It is time to bring about worth that rises above the consumerist mindset of momentary bliss and engages ideas of lasting value.

The information we are producing, the decisions we are using with our purchasing power in addition to the active role we are taking by infusing the poor with real tools to step out of poverty are all a step in the right direction. In fighting this, we must continue to utilize information and make it accessible to all, actively participate in choosing to wield our buying power, and help those who are impoverished by investing in micro-economic opportunities. These need to be implemented on a vast scale before we will see any signs of authentic radical alteration in the attempts to combat slavery.

References
Batstone, D. B. (2007). Not for sale: the return of the global slave trade-- and how we can fight it. New York: Harper, San Francisco.
CNN, (2011). The CNN freedom project. Retrieved from http://thecnnfreedomproject.blogs.cnn.com/
Free The Slaves. (2011). Free the Slaves - Slavery Today. Free the Slaves - home. Retrieved March 13, 2011, from http://www.freetheslaves.net/Page.aspx?pid=301
Heifer International, . (n.d.). Offering sustainable futures: long term solutions. Retrieved from http://www.heifer.org/site/c.edJRKQNiFiG/b.201547/
Kiva (2005-20011). Kiva-about us. Retrieved from http://www.kiva.org/about
Not For Sale, . (n.d.). About us - free2work. Retrieved from http://www.free2work.org/aboutus
Not For Sale Campaign. (Producer). (2010 ). Abolition conversations: social media & social change. [Web]. Retrieved from
Polaris Project. (2010). Human Trafficking Overview. Http://www.polarisproject.org/human-trafficking/overview. Retrieved March 13, 2011.
Rickert, Michelle L., Through the looking glass: finding and freeing modern-day slaves at the
State level (2010, July 12). Faculty Publications and Presentations. Paper 319. http://digitalcommons.liberty.edu/gov_fac_pubs/319
Sullivan, A. (2011, February 26). Super Bowl Sex Trade: Religious Groups Try to Crack Down - TIME. Breaking News, Analysis, Politics, Blogs, News Photos, Video, Tech Reviews - TIME.com. Retrieved February 27, 2011, from http://www.time.com/time/nation/article/0,8599,2046568,00.html

Saturday, May 7, 2011

The Tale of Two Stories

Over the past few weeks I have been taking a break from all the noise.
I have a fantastic ability of filling every silent moment with an
asinine amount of white noise. There is no depth to it, there is no
significance to it and there is absolutely no eternal value in it.

To remind myself of these facts, I have to shut everything off for a
bit and readjust where my head is at.

Thank you all for your respect of my silence. It has been heavenly
(literally! A cosmic reminder of heaven on earth) and much needed.

Tonight, I submitted the last two finals that are due tomorrow of this
semester. These papers have literally kicked my butt. Not that they
are magnificent or that they were even very long. It was the
information that I was required to put into them that has kept my mind
abuzz.

The first was a research class, where I spent ten weeks learning
everything I could about one topic of my choice. This topic was Modern
Slavery. This topic has ruined my life. I cannot unlearn the stories I
have read. I cannot take out the ideas of human worth and freedom. If
over the next few months you hear a lot about this issue it is because
it has become ingrained in my heartbeat. I ache for the freedom of
all.

The second paper I wrote was for my worldviews class. I had the
opportunity to write out what I believe, why I believe it to be true
and how this affects my day to day life. This sounds simple enough,
until you actually begin. Its one thing to say you believe something,
its a completely different one when you have to say if you live it
out. The complexities of life are knit into humanity and it was such a
gift to tackle this class so that I can understand the inner workings
of other peoples point of views. Mind boggling and such a deep well I
will continue to pursue academically.

These two classes although completely different have shaped the
direction I am heading in. The story of freedom of body and of mind is
where I aim. I believe that the reason we are in a state of selling
other humans is because of the way in which we view the world. In
America this directly plays out in the priorities we have in our
lives. "Living the American Dream" means exploiting another to attain
a step on the ladder.

As Christians we have two things that others do not: Worth and Freedom
through Christ. We are not bound to the things of this earth, so maybe
it is time for a check-up in the way you are living versus the Truth
you say you believe in. Mind you, this is not easy. It may require
that you step away from the noise and remember where your worth
actually lies.

My life is going to look a lot different now and I may share some of
the changes with you. I do know that freedom is my aim not only for my
own life, but for the billions bound to slavery of all sorts. My
vision just expanded two thousand fold. Direction has new meaning.

Monday, April 11, 2011

A break of silence...

I will break the void of banter for just one moment, going back under as quickly as I have surfaced.

This needs to be heard:

"In our biblical worldview today we must reframe the gospel as something that gives us life, not just a secure death.

In our story, heaven is not the goal; it's the destination. We're going to reign with God forever in the renewed heaven and renewed earth. That's our destination. But the goal now is spiritual transformation into Christlikeness on earth now as it already is in heaven."

-John Lamb (my philosophy teacher)

 

Sunday, April 3, 2011

A New(ISH) Perspective

                                                                                                                          I. 
This small word shows itself rampant in blogs, tweets, posts, comments. Self-focused is the reality I am finding myself in. There seems to be only one way to remedy this. Change of focus. This is easier said than done folks. So instead of bemoaning how had it will be, or how much it is tearing and ripping at my soul, I am going to simply spend some time falling in love with Jesus. I need some quality time, so I am "getting away" for a bit. Not that this needs your approval or your understanding before I can accomplish this task, but I would appreciate some prayers. 

...and on that note:

                  Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Philippians 4:5

       Dear Lord Jesus, no one is as gentle as you—no one’s gentleness is more evident that yours. You are kind to the systemically broken, patient with repeat offenders and compassionate towards those of us whose struggles are legion. You’re never in a hurry, and you never come across as rigid or harsh. Your non-anxious, calm, encouraging presence gives us great hope that we too can become a gentle people. I lay claim to that hope today for myself.

Jesus, gentle me when I’m behind slow drivers who stay in the fast lane. Gentle me when I face both fair and unfair criticism. Gentle me when I think things that are obvious to me ought to be obvious to everybody else. Gentle me when loud boorish people invade “my space”—as though I have some inalienable right to a non-interrupted life.

     Gentle me when I’m too tired to engage, but my wife really needs me to listen. Gentle me when I need a nap but my grandson needs to play. Gentle me when someone gets the last cookie I was already planning on enjoying with a glass of milk.

     Gentle me when the vacation gets cut short by crises. Gentle me when friends keep making the same mistakes and foolish choices. Gentle me when the restaurant sends me home with the wrong takeout order. Gentle me when Satan starts condemning me for things I actually did, but things for which you already paid my debt.

     Gentle me when I start debating theology rather than loving the people who see things differently. Gentle me when it gets too humid to run, disrupting my plans. Gentle me when I cannot fix the very people you never gave me to fix.

     Jesus, you are so very near to us in the gospel, in fact, you live in our hearts. But you’re also near in terms of coming back to finish making all things new. How we long for that Day, more than ever. May your two-fold nearness generate a much quicker repentance on our part during this day. Gentle us for your glory by your grace, we ask. So very Amen, we pray, in your kind and loving name.

A Prayer for a Gentler, Kinder Heart is a post from: Heavenward by Scotty Smith


What a great way to start. Prayer is where it happens. Prayer is where I want to live. 

Adieu! 

Until next time....

Friday, April 1, 2011

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Thursday, March 31, 2011

I am Unable, but if I had a Boat I'd Sail to You

I am unable and this is killing my pride, my drive and my purpose in your life. 

I am sick, and have been for a bit. I am physically challenged by the hurdles my body is putting me through. I barely have enough resolve to get up in the morning.

And yet, people are blowing up my phone. Not in a "do you need some chicken soup?" kind of way. But more in the sense of “why can you not help me…still?" kind of way. Through this I am seeing that I have done a very good job of making myself needed in other peoples lives. I believe that this is out of fear. I do not want to be alone. I easily believe the lie that If people need me they will call me. If they don’t need me then I am not worth their time. At this moment, I just need to be. I cannot help. I cannot hold anyone up and I definitely cannot muster up the stamina for hours of listening to others hard times.

Truth: This season is so good for my soul. I am not God, yet have I tried to be for others? I am not God, yet have I tried to be in my own life? As I continue to pair down my life and continue to say no (quite repetitively and usually with tears in my eyes), I am realizing that this moment is not about them. God is doing a work in me, and I can’t get in the way of it. Yes, I love people, yes, I love to help them, but how can I do that well if I am not ok? Instead of responding in love all I can do in this moment is be sad and spiteful.

The heart of man is dark and just like the silver refining process it takes a lot of heat to bring out and separate the evil from the good. A silversmith will place a blob of a mix of metals and rocks onto a large spoon, place it in a hot fire to melt it down. He then pulls it out and rising to the surface are the “impurities”. How many times does this happen? Until he sees his own reflection in the silver, not one spec of the contaminate can remain. As I am in a season of hot fire, melting down, some impurities are rising to the surface. This is a good thing. Maybe I’m not the “happiest” to be around right now, but in this moment I see that God is good and that he is doing good in my life.

God brings joy, but I do not believe that happy and joyful are synonymous. 

I will not sit here and laugh away the hurt. I will not push away the feelings that this brings up. I will not pretend this is easy. 

I will get up in the morning, I will love Jesus more at the end of this, I will see the bigger picture of this season in my life. 

I usually do not read lyrics when people put them in blogs, so I will not be offended if you do not either. This song is on my heart though and fits this moment just right. Really truly and honestly if I had a way I would have coffee, or do voice teachings, or do bible study and street walking, I'd do your hair and take you shopping, I would have sleepovers and dinners, I'd have girl time and game nights, I would go to your parties, events, adventures and see you in concert.

But I do not have a boat, so I will slowly swim pointed north and hope that the shore breaks into view sooner than later. 


If I Had  a Boat

verse 1

burn slow, burning up the back wall
long roads, where the city meets the sky
most days, most days stay the sole same
please stay, for this fear it will not die

chorus

if i had a boat, i would sail to you
hold you in my arms, ask you to be true
once i had a dream, it died long before
now i’m pointed north, hoping for the shore

verse 2

down low, down amongst the thorn rows
weeds grow, through the lillies and the vine
birds play, try to find their own way
soft clay, on your feet and under mine

chorus

bridge

breaking at the seams
heaving at the brace
sheets all billowing
the breaking of the day
sea is not my friend
seasons they conspire
still i choose to swim
slip beneath the tide

once i had a dream
once i had a hope
that was yesterday
not so long ago
this is not the end
this is just the world
such a foolish thing
such an honest girl

chorus

James Vincent McMorrow

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

A Light in This Dark Semester

A redefining of the term Worldview:

"A recognition that a worldview is not just a set of basic concepts but a fundamental orientation of the heart. Second it is an explicit insistence that at the deepest root of a worldview is its commitment to and understanding of the 'really real.' Third is a consideration of behavior in the determination of what one's own or another's worldview really is. Fourth is a broader understanding of how worldviews are grasped as story, not just as abstract propositions... Let the rethinking begin." James W. Sire in Rethinking the Elephant

Amen. 
I already love this Worldview/Philosophy class.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Titles are Redundant and Dreaming is Hard but Hard does not Always Infer Negativity

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           I have been overusing my mind of late. I am currently enrolled in Colorado Christian University’s College of Adult and Graduate Studies. That is all just some fancy verbiage for online courses. It is honestly a sweet gig, I get to take six week courses. Yes that is right, some crazy person drummed up the idea of six-week intense bimester in which they take everything in a traditional semester and whittle it down into a whirlwind of information blasting through your brain. Ouch. It is hard!

            Also I have gotten a new job at a sweet coffee house and roaster. The schedule is constant. I always work the same shift every day, and I love the atmosphere. I still don’t have a car these days but “The Factory” is only 1.7 miles from my house, so I bike to work. It is so great to wake up the tired muscles before I get to work. I really enjoy it most days, but if you live in Colorado or have ever visited here you know that the weather here is CRAZY. One day it will be 75 and the next it is barely able to conjure up 45.

It would seem that Mother Nature has something against early morning bike riders, as I have experienced every type of radical weather that starts five minutes after I leave my house and usually is over about five minutes after I get to work. Snowstorm, rainstorms, windstorms, bitter cold, and unusually warm and foggy mornings have all occurred in the last three weeks. Another whirlwind of extra information that has to compute through my brain. Even if you check the weather report before you leave the house, the likelihood it is wrong is about 95%. At least the meteorologists are consistent, eh?

All this information sits in my head and I have to get it out, so here at the blog there seems to be a theme of purging and squeezing out the proverbial sponge that is my mind. Something that has been a recurrent theme in my mind that needs to come out is the idea of home. What is home and how do I find it are two questions that beat heavily on my heart. The American Dream of a house with a white picket fence, a loyal dog and a family that loves, honors and respects me growing up to fulfill my legacy on this earth is so seductive. I must admit, I have dreamed along with its luring tones at times.

Are we not called to something better here on earth, though? I believe in taking the opportunities I am given. Take this new job, I was not looking for a new job, yet this one fell in my lap. The raise was significant enough to start paying down debts and save a bit of money, something I have never had the ability to accomplish. I saw that the opportunity provided was significant and it would have been stupid not to take the position. On this earth, as Christians we are granted the beautiful gift of the restoration. It begins on earth and the culmination of this process ends when we are met face to face by the Creator. Finally restored to do the very thing we were made from the beginning to be, reflections of His glory, image bearers of the Most High God, worshippers of the King of Kings. What a beautiful thought!

I crave that day. I crave the moment when the entire world is made right. When every longing of my soul brings me to Him, the One whose love has shifted my whole reality and being. The thing I must remember is that day is not here yet. I do not yet desire fully the things that draw me closer to God. I am a weak being with weak desires and vivid fantasy’s of how God should be enacting this out in my life. In reading about the Israelites in the Old Testament, I see how truly weak the heart of man actually is. The consistency of which they desert God, and fly after their own fantasies believing in fulfilling their own destiny makes for a redundant story. It also makes me ask: Is this my story? Am I seeking the desires of God’s own heart or mine?

I think that most times the desires I have within me are evil. At this point in my life I know that there are so many shiny things that capture my attention easily, and honestly I ride with them most times. I love God, but the truth is I cannot love Him rightly, without His help. I need God, to love God. It is such an out of the box line of thinking that my brain struggles with! I need God to love God! So today, as I awoke with dreams of a house of my own and kids that share my DNA, I realize that I have been called to such a time as THIS. The future is near, tomorrow will come, but as Mathew 6:25-34 reads:

Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

 

I read this and wonder: Am I consistently seeking the Kingdom of God and HIS righteousness, OR my own? All definitions of the word righteousness infer goodness. By definition as a Christian, I believe that all men are innately evil. So once again, if I am seeking my own righteousness through my own desires, I am trying to climb a mountain that doesn’t even exist! Dreams are good, if God inspires them. My dream is to love Him the best I can during my short stay on earth. If that means a husband, a house, a dog, and some crazy kid with mohawks, then so be it. If that means I get to worship God more specifically by myself, then so be it. Sufficient is today its own worries and if I am so consumed in the future, I will simply let the Glory of today slip right through my fingertips.

That is really what it comes down to, eh? What did you do with today? Not where are you going? But what are you doing today? The end goal is supremely bitter if all you did to get there was coast. If it cost you much and took more from you than you thought you had in you, then the reward of the endpoint is that much sweeter. After a jumbled bit of mumbling, I guess I will end here. If you believe the dream ahead of you is from God, then are you living honorably in today?           

Hebrews 3:12-19 seems a proper ending:

Take care, brothers, lest there be in any of you an evil, unbelieving heart, leading you to fall away from the living God. But exhort one another every day, as long as it is called "today," that none of you may be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. For we have come to share in Christ, if indeed we hold our original confidence firm to the end. As it is said,

"Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion."

 

For who were those who heard and yet rebelled? Was it not all those who left Egypt led by Moses? And with whom was he provoked for forty years? Was it not with those who sinned, whose bodies fell in the wilderness? And to whom did he swear that they would not enter his rest, but to those who were disobedient? So we see that they were unable to enter because of unbelief.

 

              What a fair warning. I think it is anyways. I earnestly seek the Heart of the King today and pray that my own rebellion will not hinder me from His heartbeat. I pray also for you that God will reveal what dreams that are awake in you, are His, and which are yours. What a great gift we have in the Holy Spirit, who can help us see the